I BEAT KINGDOM HEARTS.
THE END OWNED ME. IT'S JUST SO SO SO SO SWEET. HOW CAN YOU NOT SHIP THEM, LIZZY? WITH HER AND ISLAND, AND THEIR FINGERS, AND THE DESPERATION. AND THE MUSIC. AND ALL THOSE BEAUTIFUL GRAPHICS, HOW EV
HOW SYMBOLIC THAT IS. THAT EVERYTHING MAKES ITS OWN LIGHT, FROM SOMETHING BURNING BURNING IN THE DARK. AND THE SOFT LIGHTS ON THEIR FACES, HOW H
AND RIKU. RIKU, YOU HAVE A HEART. HE WAS WITH THE HEARTLESS, ON THE OTHER SIDE OF THAT DOOR, TELLING SORA HE'D HELP.
"Take care of her."
AND I DIED. I WAS ABOUT TO CRY, IT WAS SO MOVING. EVERYTHING. I CAN'T ARTICULATE A SIGH, BUT IMAGINE ONE FULL OF HEARTBREAK, WARMING AND CONTENTION.
THIS IS THE ONLY GAME I'VE EVER BEATEN.
THANK YOU, LIZZY. ♥
- Currently Situated:Kingdom Hearts
- Jammin' To:Simple and Clean
I-I don't know how it happened, but suddenly I was on my fourth cup of bad tea and it was eleven-thirty at night. Well, so it goes.
- Jammin' To:Love Sick Stomache Ache-- Blink 182
I will fill out your prompt list hopefully by the end of the week! NO PROMISES.
- Jammin' To:Desperately Wanting-- Better than Ezra
FINALLY, I KNOW. Will try to update in bits and pieces along with AkuRoku dabbles.
Fire Eye'd Boy by Broken Social Scene
: until the day you die, you always admit you were right, you were wrong about all of it
fire eyed boy gave them all the slip, if you're gonna come you better make it quick
brought us back, back to life, drifted off again
fire eyed boy gets his ass whipped.
{Kind of, like, the entire song.}
I Know, I Know, I Know by Tegan & Sara : Oh well I know I know I know, it's just this day
I know I know I know, what else are we here for?
This love isn't good unless it's me and you.
Stick your hands inside of my pockets,
Keep them warm while I'm still here.
Tell them this love hasn't changed me, hasn't changed me at all.
Ships by Umbrellas
: Just like ships, we float through each other's lives
I saw the whole town burn down
I'm walking away
Nothing stays, these feelings have wings
Our arms outstretched, we are soaring
Skinny Boy by Amy Millan
: skinny boy, all bones no lies
your so miserable in the mornings
will you will wait up for me?
they're coming with swords through the backdoor,
and there you are on the fence
Somebody to Love by Jefferson Airplane
: When the truth is found to be lies
and all the joys within you dies
don't you want somebody to love?
wouldn't you love somebody to love.
You and I are a Gang of Losers by Dears
:You and I are on the other side
of almost everything
Cause we
We got the same heart
BUT IF YOU LISTEN TO ANYTHING I POST HERE, LISTEN TO THESE TWO BECAUSE THEY MAKE ME CRY AND ACHE AND WANT TO HUG THEM TOGETHER WITH CRAZY GLUE:
WHAT I'M TRYING TO SAY by Stars
:You look so good in the clothes of a poser
And when you smiled all the kids fell apart here
I know a place where it's warm and it's dry, dear
Let me take you there
North of the river all the streets are the same
We can pretend that they don't know our name
And the heat is turned all the way to full
So don't pretend that you don't feel the pull
You look so good in the shoes of an outcast
I kissed your throat every time they said it wouldn't last
But then I knew you, I knew you, I knew you
I really knew you
We fell apart in the parties of the empty heart
We danced the junkies in the shadows of bad modern art
We clicked our heels and we wished we were home
One more tab and your silk hits the chrome
Spring comes in when I'm rolling up another one
I draw the curtains in the glare of the same old sun
We are collapsed in the act of just being here
Three blues, two greens, and a beer
I am trying to say
What I want to say
Without having to say
(But it's impossible to say
Without having to say)
I love you
Ocean Breathes Salty by Modest Mouse
: And maybe we'll get lucky and we'll both live again.
Well I don't know. I don't know. I don't really think so.
Well that is that and this is this.
You tell me what you want and I'll tell you what you get.
You get away from me. You get away from me.
Collected my belongings and I left the jail.
Well thanks for the time, I needed to think a spell.
The ocean breathes salty, won't you carry it in?
In your head, in your mouth, in your soul.
And maybe we'll get lucky and we'll both grow old.
Well I don't know. I don't know. I don't know. I hope so.
You missed when time and life shook hands and said goodbye. (You missed)
When the earth folded in on itself. (You missed)
And said "Good luck, for your sake I hope heaven and hell (You missed, you missed)
are really there, but I wouldn't hold my breath." (You missed, you missed)
You wasted life, why wouldn't you waste death? (You missed, you missed)
The more we move ahead the more we're stuck in rewind.
Well I don't mind. I don't mind. How the hell could I mind?
Will you tell me what you saw and I'll tell you what you missed,
when the ocean met the sky. (You missed, you missed)
You wasted life, why wouldn't you waste the afterlife?
Oh, I love them. ♥
- Jammin' To:1234 by Feist
Guitar lessons. OoOOOOOh my. What an interesting experience.
This is so weird. How do people keep journals?
His name is Seth. I tried very hard not to think of Seth Clearwater. He is very nice and we have surprisingly little in common, I think. Also, he has fascinating hazel eyes. I always get really self-conscious about my music with those people who actually know guitar. I was like, "Er, ah, Kaki King? Ani Difrancoooo?"
~
Some of the more unusual experiences of my life. I will be keeping a record of them.
1. My toilet gives a small cry of "Nooooooo" when flushed. It seems to have moved on to grumbling conversations.
2. A cottenball shoved through the bristles of a toothbrush.
- Jammin' To:Ani Difranco/ Stars
So I was thinking about Twilight, and I thought: Bella couldn't be a beautiful idiot forever. (I know Meyer can, but play along.)
I don't know how she does it. By the end of this I was getting really bored with all the compliments.
( Come on, this was hard work! )
- Jammin' To:Happy as a dead pig in the sun- Kaki King
- Currently Situated:Farfar away
- Jammin' To:Tegan & Sara
Fandom: Spring Awakening
Title: You're a Storm
Characters: Melchior & Wendla
Rate: PG-13
Word Count: 596
I should be sleeping at one in the morning on a school night after a week off. But... Spring Awakening is soooo.... I WILL SNEAK AROUND TRYING TO POST FOR I
( ( Just You & Me ) )
- Currently Situated:Under the covers
- Jammin' To:The Dark I Know Well
This started with a dream. The dream started with Katharine and I sleeping and Katie dancing and we were all in our underwear. Then it began the same way as this drabble, where I actually decided I wanted Fredmund to star, and as soon as that happened (it ended up being someone who looked a lot like Fredmund, but I was pretty content) the girl changed to someone else. And it was all Victorian-y. ACTUALLY, IT WAS REALLY COOL. There was this chorus and at the end I didn't realize until they started rising in volume, screaming, singing this phrase. And everything was so artistic.
So I tried to poem-ize it, but it ended up being very long and tedious to read. I changed it slightly for easier comprehension, but if I write this again (in a more successfully condense version) I'll probably keep to the original dream.
( Prepare yourself (Katie) )
- Jammin' To:Tegan & Sarah
Fandom: Avatar: The Last Airbender
Title: Same Skies
Ship: Zutara
Rate: G
Word Count: 806
I DO NOT WRITE GOOD FANFICTION.
Also, I know I abuse commas. This didn't require much thinking on my behalf.
( ESPECIALLY AVATAR LOLOLO )
- Jammin' To:Here's to the night-- Eve 6
Vanity
(Self inserts, mary sues, and the likes)
[] Written a self-insert fic?
[X] Given an in-series character your hobbies, likes, or dislikes? (Probably. I wouldn't put it past me.)
[X] Created a Mary-Sue/Gary-Stu?
[X] ... And then zealously denied they were one?
[X] Invented and populated an alternate universe so complex it might as well be an original novel?
[X] ...And then eventually decided to make it into an original novel? (L. O. L.)
[X] Claimed a given character as YOUR boyfriend/girlfriend/exclusive drooling property?
Avarice
(the money you've shelled out for fandom goodies)
[] Gone without basic necessities to get fandom necessities instead?
[] Spent over a hundred dollars on fandom related good at once?
[] ...Over five hundred?
[] Purchased dvds, doujinshi, manga, etc. directly from Japan?
[] ... when you don't speak/can't read Japanese?
[X] Bought music, food, cherry flavored lube because you saw your favorite character enjoy it in series? (Raaamen)
[] ...Because you saw it in a fic?
Envy
(Cosplay and mimicking characters)
[] Cosplayed an age/gender/weight/body inappropriate character?
[] Cosplayed a character you know nothing about?
[] Cosplayed as a love interest of your favorite character just to get cosplay attention from said character? (OMG WHAT A GENIUS IDEA)
[] Made out with someone because of who they cosplayed?
[] Stalked some one online/at a con/at school, because of who they cosplayed/RP/remind you of?
[] Claimed a character as your muse/soulbond/head mate?
[] Claimed you ARE a given character?
Wrath
(Flame wars, shipping, and other rage inspired by fandom)
[X] Started or been involved in a flame war over a pairing?
[X] ... Over someone not writing/RPing a favorite character "right"?
[] ... Over someone claiming 'your' character as theirs?
[] Written a fic just to bash a character you don't like? (Again, a wonderful proposal.)
[] ...and killed them horribly in the fic? (HA HA HAAA. AWESOME.)
[] Hated a ship or character because of someone who supports/RPs it?
[] Ended a friendship because you don't ship the same things?
Lust
(PRON)
[] Written/RPed/drawn lemon as a virgin?
[] Used something you read in a fic/RP on your RL boy/girlfirend?
[] Wrote a completely impossible crack pairing smut which became a fandom staple?
[] Can you recommend fics by kink?
[] Suggested something on a kink meme and then fulfilled your own request?'
[] Written/enjoyed a kink that completely squicks you in RL?
[] Discovered a kink because of fandom?
(Apparently I'm A-OK in this department. HOW EMBARASSING IF I CHECKED ALL OF THEM.
Gluttony
(All nighters and other gluttonous consumption of fandom goodies)
[X] Watched an entire series in one sitting?
[X] ...And it was more than twenty episodes?
[X] Eaten only anime-related foods (pocky, suchi, etc.) during a marathon? (L O L. YES. OMG YES.)
[] Played any sort of anime drinking game?
[] ...Created an anime drinking game?
[] Applied for a character in an RP just so that no one else could RP them?
[] Claimed all the fics for your fandom/pairing in a kink meme?
Sloth
(Blowing shit off you need to do for fandom things)
[X] Stayed up all night RPing/reading fic/watching anime/playing video games when you had school/work the next day?
[] Asked for an extension on something you didn't do because you were reading fic/RPing/watching anime?
[X] Read fic or RPed while at school/work?
[] ...And it was smut?
[X] Made things up because you were too lazy to check series facts for your fic? (Can I double-check this?)
[] Filled out a fandom related meme when you should have been working/doing homework?
[] Created a fandom related meme when you should have been working/doing homework?
Ranking:
0-7: Fandom Virgin - You are a pure, untouched soul. You've never been in fandom before. In fact, you probably aren't sure what it is... Just don't ask us to be gentle, okay?
8-14: Fandom Saint - You're a saint! You've done so little wrong in fandom! ... In fact, you're kind of boring. Go out and write some smut already!
15-21: Repentant Sinner- You've made your mistakes in the past, but you're ready to let that go. With some good fic or fanart, you'll be in the fandom gods good graces again. Now get on yuor knees and show me just how sorry you really are. (How about... no. BITCH PLEASE? *MUNCH MUNCH*)
22-28: Middle Way - You're a walking contradiction. For every good fic and thoughtful review there's a flame and a self-insert to balance it. You're a fence-sitter, neither good nor bad, though you have the potential for both. So make up your damn mind already!
29-35: Bad Influence - You're certainly not the worst that fandom has to offer, but your fandom soul is more than slightly tarnished. In fact, you might be responsible for the corruption of others. But you probably don't feel sorry about it. (Aaaa~ ha. I should be here. I would be if this were three years ago.)
36-42: Damned Sinner - Where am I? Where are we going? And why am I in this fandom shaped handbasket? ... Well, at least we've got really good smut here.
43-49: Fandom Demon - You've done it all, been around the fandom block, and baby, you don't even regret it. Satan could learn a thing or two from you.
LOLLLL. LIZZY, THIS HAS MADE MY HOUR. Back to homework.
- Currently Situated:Your fridge
- Jammin' To:Aori's screams of horror
Katie,
I don’t really know how to tell you this, but you’re a pervert. I think I realized it the first of May in your camping car when I saw you sit on my best friend. I’m sure you’re ashamed enough to realize I get turned on by garbage men. I’m returning the couch cushions to you, but I’ll keep your photo as a memory. You should also know that I was interviewed by Times about my cocaine abuse.
Greetings to your freaky family,
Angehttp://amuris.deviantart.com/journal/205
On this cold, clammy outcropping
I sit erect—my shoulders back, chin tilted
Watch the years of boats sail by
Their grizzled men, their white fish-belly skin,
Their shadowed throats and overcoats.
With paw-like hands they scratch my skin
Black lined fingernails—grime of broken homes left behind.
They fist my hair in their hands like a claim to new land
I tell them "let me go fisherman.
Be gone with your ropes and land-borne greed."
I take back the stolen locks with sharp seashells.
As they pass, the burning never leaves their eyes
Rejection, repression, longing unquestioned: the salt in their sea.
They'll be back in seven years.
*
Guesses?
*
Guesses?
- Currently Situated:Forest of Raspberry Shampoo
- Jammin' To:Bats for Lashes-- Tahiti
Screaming down the highway knots in my hair
Throw it in a rubberband, no one gives a shit what you look like here.
By the rocky shoreline, trails of white smoke
my clouds for the sky.
Can't I have a day to walk out of the shower
Put on a pair of jeans and the pair of passed down sneakers
Forget makeup
A can of tea and the rocky shoreline.
Don't look at me like another drunk friend to your father's party
Can't you remember? We played Monopoly in the white attic.
I hate getting lost behind the turned page
Can't it be my chewed up, stubby fingernails scratching?
They're not the longest in class anymore
Your hair is chestnut to the shoulder, too.
Please don't look at me like you don't remember.
*
Second time this happened. I would have said "Hey, nice guitar. We've gotta go-- by the way, do you remember me? We went to your beach house one time. Your hair was as dark as your eyes back then. Ange-- it's nothing-- see you in three years." I would've. But he had to go be a rockstar. God I love that kid. I wonder if he doesn't remember?
- Jammin' To:3EB
It's never going to be like New York in the sixties.
My garage smelt of gasoline & old wood.
Where blue jays cry in the jub jub tree;
Where music came in the gravelly taste of torn knees
Scraping blue chalk in the rain
& the neighbors' bulldog growling next door.
I hate when autumn flirts in the air,
Filling my head with brown sugar & cinnamon.
Or when the spring leaves dew on her green eyelashes.
Twice it's hit me the right way,
Filling my lungs with damp cardboard, freshly rained-on leaves.
Maybe one day I'll shut up & figure
It's never going to be like Roxbury in 1999.
There's no button on your TiVo remote to rewind
Once a suicide jumper clears the edge & thinks: fuck!
Any Last Words of the twenty-first century.
Wake up, mirror!
If they wanted a mannequin they're on sale in aisle twelve.
I hate seeing people from years ago!
How ever is one to properly forget?
*
HEY FOLKS HOW'S THE WEATHER OUT THEEEERE?
A LOT. A WHOLE LOT. A SEA. OF COFFEE. OR SODA. WHICEVER'S ON SALE?
OR SNAPPLE.
DONATIONS ARE WELCOME ALWAYS~
- Currently Situated:crosslegged in the livingroom
- Jammin' To:Joseph's agonized moans
Today you get a crappy poem.
Spit your gum into the paper, toss it at the man in front of you,
make the first airplane to travel the world,
make origami and say it's an animal trap.
Have the courage to jump in front of class and make a scene.
Have the drive to honestly complete a day's gym class,
Come back home, peel your sweaty socks off and join me by the pool for fake martinis.
Tomorrow's only a few hours away.
*
I figure I can blurb a little snippet of poetry whenever I find something to write about. RENT has closed down, but it hasn't stopped influencing my life. Songs still hum behind my lips and I'm surprised how many people know about it. A lot of the ideas portrayed still have me thinking differently, still thinking, "Why *is* that wrong?" School's a lot easier than any other year socially than I'd ever expected; the work is enough to keep me busy. I have so many projects to do. It's wonderful to have something important in your life.
- Currently Situated:You tell me
- Feelin' :unusually peaceful
- Jammin' To:Mononoke Hime theme
Windowroom, dancing in the shattered suns,
heat growing up my neck, arms, legs, vine-like.
Ashes through my windpipe like a chimney,
smoker's coughing ladybug wings.
White dress blooming like a
flower in summer around my twig ankles.
And the wind singing
something sounding like "we all fall down."
Jammed into my drawer was a note in green ink
It gave me a clue to where those misshapen heartbeats come from.
.
.
.
It's an unconscious pattern of every three years
I drive by that beat up house with two addresses
I swear,
ONE DAY I'll get there on my own
Walk around in the playground,
pass the pool of goldfish and wonder who put them there,
buy a box of candy from that cornerstore that was robbed like every other week,
and walk between the lanes of trees beside the beach
ONE DAY I'll stand in the middle of the road
Snap a picture of that weird tree
that always changed its leaves before anyone else got the memo.
Right behind the lake, the setting sun, the quaint houses.
The perfect shot. The perfect place.
I used to love my life.
I used to wonder what kind of ten-year-old walked to the buss stop
Stopped time, stopped the world, stopped walking
And thought: I am so lucky.
That place was magic, I don't care who you are or who your parents were
There was dragon dust in my one door basement, glitter in the big night sky,
zombie cats next door, twin dogs with marble eyes that met us every day.
ONE DAY I'll go to the high school that was never mine
Sit outside with a mug of tea, watch the students walk by
And think "I know you."
ONE DAY I'll meet that boy who called me
Asking how I was after I scarred my face
I'll ask him to tell me what he's been up to in the last decade
And ask him
And ask him
And ask him
And ask him
And maybe
ONE DAY I'll go home.
- Currently Situated:Not Here
- Jammin' To:The Starting Line- Birds/Something left to Give
Dragonfly wings are dusted with sugar, and that they make mighty tasty sandwiches?
That I always wanted to dye my hair some funky color?
How I grew my nails to see the rings in them, like trees, and
cut them off?
That light is an illusion. Hope is an illusion. A flashlight flickering on an off
by some punk at the other end.
That everyone is queer?
How paradoxical our lives are?
How no one is ordinary, and those who think so
dress in gray flannel and big college sweatshirts and tie their hair up
like their tongues, and are tougher than me?
How people on the other side laugh and laugh their pretty heads
saying how odd and unique their feathers are and how impossible it
seems to find that funny?
I sing like a songbird but sound like an out tuned guitar?
That if you want to read a biography of me, it's only here metaphysically until Sunday?
Count to five and leave a message at the beep, then repeat
the sound of walking in snow and a short poem
explaining why shoes belong in telephone wires.
That schools starts in six days?
- Jammin' To:Danzig-- Mother
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